Will This Dream Come True

Seldom do I have dreams that I remember even having. Far more rare is a dream that I remember so vividly that I wake up saddened that it was not real.

Boy...did this one seem real!

I found myself traveling to some incredible resort for a conference. (Imagine...me traveling to a conference. That seems to be the story of my life.) I end up getting the most spectacular suite in the place. The beauty of the suite and the views of this beach were simply breathtaking. I can tell you that the beauty of resort and the beach were so that I have no recollection of attending any of the conference.

That doesn't sound much like the most amazing dream known to mankind. In fact, how many of us have not ever dreamed of being on the beach? So what makes this dream so much more spectacular than all the rest? In this dream I fell in love!

Whoa! Did I just say that? I actually fell in love?

We met at this dream resort while checking in at the front desk. It was nothing more than a glance at first. As fate would have it, we continually ran into each other over the course of our stay. It was all so very innocent and easy going.

I even learned his name in the course of this dream...Michael. (Side note: For all my friends named Michael, or who know other guys named Michael, let me assure you it is not any of you or them. Sorry!) While I cannot describe Michael in great detail to you, the vividness of the dream is a bit blurry in spots, I can tell you that I absolutely fell head-over-hills in love with him. He was the one soul who completed my life. I can say that with absolution.

At some point in the dream we were together in our home, which is consequently on some random beach. I remember the feeling of just waking up and his face being the first thing I saw in the morning. There was a point in the dream where one of my long lost friends, Christy, came over to visit Michael and me. Her visit was interesting for we have not really seen each other since our falling out 4 years ago. As soon as she arrived she ran to me and we have the most amazing hug as if nothing had ever happened. How I miss her. What was even more spectacular was how she and Michael hit it off and fostered this wonderful friendship with each other.

Why is that scene so consequential to me? It is not the fact that my friendship with Christy was rekindled and issues were resolved. What was amazing to me was how loving and accepting my friends were of Michael, and vice versa. I often worry about how my friends will interact with whomever I may be with, and their acceptance of my friends.

For the record, there was never anything in this dream that would require a parental consent rating at the movies.

This was a very beautiful dream full of hope. While a mass amount of the dream's details are a blur to me, what has rang clear throughout is that I truly felt L-O-V-E. It was the most amazing feeling, and one that I can say I have not found in my life yet. I found the partner, quite literally of my dreams, that completed so much of my life. He was someone who loved me for every aspect of whom I am and what I do in this life. He was someone with whom I could finally let my guard down and be to whom I could show the vulnerable side of me.

When I awoke this morning and gained a sense of where I was there was a sadness in my heart. I felt like I lost what I have been quietly seeking in my life. A tear fell across my face as I realized none of that was truly real in my life...yet. I desperately tried to fall back to sleep and arrive back where the dream left off. Alas, I could not do it. Now I sit here writing it all down for you.

As with most any experience in life, I try to take away the lessons left for me to learn. I learned that love is real and it is out there waiting for me somewhere. I may find the one I love when I least expect to do so. I learned that when I find the one I am meant to love, I will be able to let my guard down and feel protected with the one I love.

Most of all I have learned to keep hope alive. In truth I have always given way to the idea that I will never truly find love. I have always felt that I would always live out this life alone. To admit that to you is not easy, but it has been the truth. That is not to say that I never wanted to find the one I am meant to love in this life. I just always resorted to the idea that it would be impossible for me. There has consistently been that glimmer of hope somewhere in my head and heart, but it has been fading for some time now. I am happy to know know that my head and heart still hole that hope for me, and that tonight they worked together to let me feel that hope of love in the dream of Michael.

Since it seems that I am getting a bit sappy in this post, I believe I will stop! Thanks for listening!

Sweet dreams!